I've often joked that I wish someone could take me apart and put me back together "better" - little did I know that it would one day come true. If you're just tuning in - I explained more about the last two years in this blog post. But to sum up; in adolescence some of the soft tissues of my hip never finished forming into bone - and now my body is so over having to work so hard to keep the joint together. So, rather than treating only the symptom (labral tear), the surgeon will also be addressing the cause and making a series of cuts to the bones in my pelvis in order to position my hip socket in a more supportive way. When we talked to the surgeon in December, it sounded like surgery would likely be scheduled for April. But, obviously, that didn't happen and I had to wait until mid-June. While that allowed me to finish out the semester of teaching dance, I was initially pretty bummed by the delay. Now, I think it was for the best. In April I will still having thoughts like "maybe I'm being dramatic and don't need surgery" -- now I'm in enough daily pain that I know this is the right move. I thought the weeks leading up to surgery would be riddled with anxiety, I even scheduled extra appointments with my therapist to stay ahead of it. And I do get occasional waves, but mostly I've felt ready to be on the other side and on the road to recovery. I'm ready to be in less pain, ready to be able to move my body without fear of discomfort, and ready to get back to dancing and the emotional release that brings. Tomorrow's the big day, so today I'm focusing on things that bring me joy (reading, knitting, cuddling with my partner and my cat, etc...). And when the "what if's" of what could go wrong start to creep in, I come back to my breath to ground myself. I'm unsure how often I'll post here or on my Instagram (@AshlynMoves) - but I do plan to share a bit about how I prepared/if the things I did were necessary as well as sharing updates about the recovery process.
Please send all of your comforting, calming, and healing thoughts/vibes/prayers my way.
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